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Thank you for sharing your experience during such a tough time. Your reflection on grief, distance, and the intense emotions we feel as autistics resonated with me. Balancing so much, especially under these kinds of circumstances, is quite challenging. What a powerful reminder of the deep connections and emotions we carry.

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Thanks so much 🥰

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My heart goes out to you Sam. I know the pain and suffering of losing a parent traumatically, I know the pain of feeling the limitations of my capabilities to share my time with both sets of family. I must urge you to slow down and focus on your breath when you feel overwhelmed. Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh’s mindfulness practices have helped me and still helping navigate these murky waters- https://youtu.be/I3SDyQNnjxU?si=eOWQAriWr9PWI6wc

I am sending lots of prayers and strength for you and your family to navigate through this grief. 💜

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Thanks Swarnali, I appreciate your recommendation. I’ll definitely watch this a couple of times over the weekend and try to add it to my emotional toolkit. It’s tricky with AuDHD to identify overwhelm in the moment. And it’s astonishing how grief can trip me up when I’m going about an otherwise normal day 💕

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I see you friend and I understand your suffering. Be patient with yourself and with time you shall float above all the rest that ails you. Stay in touch with your breath and body. Please feel free to reach out in case you feel like talking, there are no strangers in grief. My email: swarnali@berkana.cc

Look after yourself first, an empty cup cannot pour. Peace and healing sweet friend ❤️‍🩹

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Jul 20Liked by Sam Galloway

I thought i had the flu, my body ached particularly in my collarbone areas and I couldn’t shake it, I then realized it wasn’t the flu-it was the grief.

I also had been someone who needed to read books with no sound around me to suddenly not being able to read and finding myself scrolling and listening to audiobooks at the same time though having to rewind audiobook frequently.

My safe foods became unsafe textures and eventually found new safe foods.

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I’m so glad you realised it was grief. Knowing is all part of processing 💕

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Jul 16Liked by Sam Galloway

Oh boy, I can't even imagine. 😔 I'm so grateful my parents left London when I was 5, my brother 8. But I've always felt like part of me has been missing. I've never been back. I'm grateful too that I was with my Dad when he died. I didn't deal well with the grief and I urge you to do better than I did, somehow. So, yeah, oh boy my friend - that's a lot to cope with. Xxxxxx

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How to deal with the grief, other than to wean my SSRI dosage back down so I can help feelings again..?! 😭 xxx

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*have not help

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I'm sorry you are dealing with so much. I'm glad you got those last moments with your dad.

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Thanks, Emma 💕

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Jul 16Liked by Sam Galloway

I'm so very sorry, Sam. Sending virtual hugs

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Thank you! 💕

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Thanks for sharing your wisdom and kindness 💕

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